i screwed up pretty bad. as some of you may remember, i dated my sister's 18 year old best friend for a while. things were great, she's interested in the same things i am interested in. in fact, the first time i met her about a little over 2 years ago, she was staying the night with my sister, i went downstairs to clean up a bit after hauling my buddy's Firebird to his new apartment. i noticed she was rather attractive. i made mention of hauling the car to my sister, and Amber immediately questioned what year Firebird, also stating that she loved pre-82 Firebirds. i told her a little about it, then she sat up (previously laying on the couch, covered in a blanket watching a movie), and the blanked fell off of her revealing a Dale Earnhardt tshirt, another little plus for her. the follwing morning i asked my sister about her. i found out at that point that she was 17. she turned 18 in February, and graduated high school in June. shortly after is when i started seeing her. things went great, and frankly, i couldnt find anything i didnt like about her. things progressed a little more, and never having had a long relationship before, looking back, i got scared. prior to this, the longest relationship i had had was under 4 months. the thought of commiting myself to one person for a long period of time scared the hell out of me. i took little things that she said, and turned them around into things i "didnt like" about her, when in fact i couldnt find any fault with her. we saw each other on occasion after i started pulling that crap, and there was talk of friends with benefits, although that never happened. i didnt really put to much thought into it until about a month ago. i started seeing a girl from work. appearance wise, she was definitely not my type. this girl flat out told me, "i am the princess, its going to be my way." that relationship lasted about a week. then in conversation with one of my friends, he asked me what the hell i was doing. i thought about it for a couple of days, and realized what i had done. i now realized how great what i had was, and i knew that she was happy when we were together. so i tried began to talk to her, telling her how much i miss her. then that lead to talks of getting back together. i went Friday night to the bowling alley, looking for a couple of buddies. i happened to see her with this guy, i was hurt, and jealous all at the same time. so i approached her, and asked her if i could talk to her. old boy had to open his mouth, so i made a scene. fortunately, i had enough control, no punches were thrown. but, i left shortly thereafter, tail between my legs. i talked to her a couple days ago and she told me that i mean more to her than i'll ever know. that feeling is mutual, i'd give anything for this girl. but, she says that i'm going to have to regain that trust, and that all she wants right now is friendship. meanwhile, i'm stressing over regaining that trust. i havent slept right since Friday, and i havent hardly eaten anything. anybody got any ideas of simple little things i can do to rebuild that trust? maybe even stuff she wont realize i'm doing? its killing me going through all this right now, and i have no idea what to do about it, other than wait. i just wish that i would've realized what i was doing 3 months ago, i'd be in a whole different world right now. fortunately i realized what i was doing before it was the big "too late" and she's getting married or something. come on guys, help a brother out.