Well fellas, I hit rock bottom. Sunday/Monday were the worst two days of my life so far. I never seem to keep anything and I'm afraid of so many things I can't even seem to make myself have fun. Im deathly afraid of needles and I hate tattoos because they're permanent. After losing the trust of my girlfriend and thinking she might never talk to me again I decided to give myself something permanent to hold on to. A tattoo. So I used some pins I had in a sewing kit, steralized them, taped 3 of them together and started dabbing them in ink. What I ended up with was a tattoo of the word INK. I used that word for three reasons. 1. The pen is mightier than the sword (used pen ink) 2. ink is a permanent way to write things 3. the letters I N K are all I need to spell her name (Niki). I don't know how long the tattoo will stay on my arm, if it will get infected or if I hurt myself in some way. I really don't care. I overcame some fears of mine and now I have a reminder written on my skin. This is a useless post, I know, thanks for reading anyways.