I'm hoping the brotherhood can help me out here. I'm going in for surgery tomorrow and for some reason, i'm EXTREMELY nervous about it. I think that it just seems like i'm falling apart at 30 and it's kind of depressing. I haven't taken the greatest care of my body but I never expected to have had 3 major surgeries by 30. They are giving me two seperate procedures; a fissurectomy and a sphincterotomy. There is also a lump in my colon that needs to be removed. So yeah, it invlolves my bunghole and that scares me a lot! The bathroom has always been my favorite place to read and i'm worried my personal library experiences will never be the same. I just can't figure out why this is freaking me out so much. The past two surgeries were major and they didn't have me nearly as nervous. I think seeing the procedure performed online has me freaked out to some degree. There seem to be two major advantages/reasons to getting this surgery though. 1) I will finally be able to do what I want, when I want. Pain won't rule my life like it has the past few months. 2) I can have a custom t-shirt that proclaims "biggest a**hole in Tx." or "I'm a big ol' a*s" I think they could be taken wrong though so I dunno. Sorry if this post sounds whiney or whatever, I just need some help from some friends i guess.