some recent events in my life have really screwed things up for me and I dont know what to do so I though maybe some advise from the brotherhood or maybe just letting things out could help me. this is kind of a long story but Ill try and keep it short. Last semester about half way through I met this girl that I thought was freakin awesome. Shes smart, beautiful, fun to be around, pretty much all the good qualities you could find in a girl plus she knows stuff about cars and wants a 69 camaro. what more could you ask for. after talking to her for a while I learned that she has been in a relationship with this guy for 2 years and they even have plans of getting married. no biggie, shes one of the coolest girls I have ever met and I am perfectly fine with being friends. so we became friends. damn good friends too. Ive got good friends that I have known since I was a little kid and even in the little time I have known her she is absolutely the best friend I have ever had. we do everything together and I cant help but have a bit of attraction to her but I keep it to myself and enjoy being friends. until last night. we were hanging out playing cards with some other people being the same old friends we always are and had a few drinks. we didnt get drunk by no means just losened up. after everybody else left it was just me and her talking and making jokes just like always. we went for a walk and ended up staying out till about 1 a.m. I was walking her back to her room and she said that she didnt want to go to her room so I offered to take her back to mine. she said ok and we talked for a while and got tired so I let her sleep in my bed and I went to sleep in another room. she was making lots of noise so I went in to check on her and we started talking. then she threw her arms around me and started telling me about how she thought I was one of the greatest guys she had ever met and was going to make some girl really happy one day. we kept talking and one thing led to another and Im going to leave these details out but she ended up cheating on her boyfriend last night. she told me that she really likes me and thinks Im great and all that good mushy stuff and started crying saying that her boyfriend was a really good guy and that she just couldnt break up with him cause it would hurt him. I told her that she should do whatever makes her happy and quit worrying so much about what other people think so much. after all youve got to make yourself happy before you can make everyone else happy. shes really upset about what happened and hasnt called me or talked to me all day. I know that she is in a terrible situation and I feel bad because I shouldnt have let it happen. she tried to tell me that she is capable of making her own decisions and it wasnt my fault but I still feel terrible. I told her that I would always be her friend no matter what she decides to do. she is really worried about hurting me but I told her not to worry that I would be fine. only problem is that Im not fine. I havent stopped thinking about it all day and cant concetrate on anything else. I want so bad for her to leave him now and its really hard to look at her as just a friend now. my feelings for her have changed and I just dont know how to cope with it. I want to continue being her friend but everytime I think about her that first kiss crosses my mind and its just not the same. any suggestions on what to do? anyway sorry for the long story, Im just lost and in need of some help. thanks guys.