hey fellas, just wanted to give ya'all a update on me and my familys situation.. we got the cremains back today and im not doing soo good right now.. ITs wierd knowing that my dad is in that vuase or whatever its called... Im not taking it too well... The jeep i traded the blazer for is turning out to be something i didnt want to happen.. i knew this guy was getting rid of it for a reason because the engine (258 I6) is slowly taking a dump... he said it was just rebuilt so i had planned on doing the 4.0 head on it for more power but since the oil pressure has started to take a dive and its starting to get a knock to it im gonna hafta pull it out... i really wanted to do the V8 swap anyways, but not this soon... especially when this is gonna be my only mode of transportation for the next few weeks while my sisters car is in for repairs...It really sucks knowing that my dad wont be calling me anymore to ask when ill be home or anything and stuff like that.. My work isnt taking it too well either.. they have blamed me for the shop not being productive and told me that i should have not taken soo much time off (4 days)... I just feel like ive been hit with this bomb and things are getting worse instead of better... its not even a money issue anymore.. i could care less about money and my bills right now.. its just i really really miss my dad.. some may say that im immature for that, but ive lived with him my whole life... I dont know what to do fellas... im hurting and angry at the same time and others around me can see that.. the guys at work have been giving me crap for the last few monthes and today i finally blew up and lost it and went off on everyone.. I personally think its wrong for someone to tell me that i shouldnt have taken 4 days off from work prior to my father dying (cause he died on a friday)... but i guess theres some cold blooded people out there... I just dont know what to do.. i just need some time away from everything, Im getting to the point where im neglecting my own vehicles because i dont even wanna work on cars anymore... I used to love working on my own junk, but it seems like ever since i have done it from 8-5 i hate it... I just dont know what to do guys.. anyone ever been in my shoes before and had bad thoughts about whether life is worth living or not????