but i take enuff narcotics to put a horse down on a daily basis and when i'm wheelin i usually double up on my oxycodone and methadone...otherwise a couple of good jolts and i'm ready to quit. so i just get where i can't feel a thing and wheel the wee out of everthing, ever1 says i;m nuts and i moan and groan about the pain 4 a week....sometimes i have to double up the day after plus take my trazadone and sleep for 24 hrs and wake up and can barely move yelling begging my wife to bring me my meds then i lay there until they take effect and i light duty it for a day or 2 i am actually putting myself in danger wheeling as i have several screwed up vertabrae and they tell me they are to wide spread apart to fuse them...i begged them to do it but they said i didn't realize how much movement i would lose and refused, said all they can do is keep me where the pain is managable, so i don't want to inflict physical harm on my self or want to just die, but everytime i go wheeling i'm taking a chance of paralizing myself from the chest down! but i still do it i refuse to live like a partial vegatable and i've had a few close calls,i've been removed from my truck more than once onto a back board to an ambulance to the er!! i guess if and when it happens i'll be rigging up hand controls on my ride. because i will wheel until i die!