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i know this doesn't belong here, but i can't post anywhere else

vortec said:
i really know how you feel with this situation as a whole. i was always the strong one and the protector. had a beautiful girlfriend of 4 years. then, my freshman year of college, some uninsured idiot plowed his truck into my car. i got pretty lucky as brain injuries go, i guess. but that first year of adjusting to medications and their side effects and significant life changes really brought me down. my depression tore my relationship apart and my friends tried to help, but they didn't know how to help the strong one when i felt weak. and i resented their concern, mistaking it for pity. so, i pushed them away.
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I've been there for three years fixed myself for 2 years, got a fine gf, and then found myself chin deep in dog crap and am still up to my knees in it. Life is like a fight sometimes... you can either get knocked on your ass get up and start swinging like a madman or you can get knocked down get back up and get your ass kicked... what matters is what happens in your head after the fight is over. My point is life is a fight and you will always have your pointless "what the hell am i doing here" and "what is the point of our lives" moments or years... we all go through it but some worse than others. I wouldn't have ever been able to picture myself in my position 2 years ago but thats life and only the strong prevail. I was always the one who everybody respected and came to for help. Most of the chicks at my school kept tellin me im hardcore and all my buddies said the same thing so when i felt like grabbin my hunting knife and puttin it through my neck i felt like a worthless piece of trash and that i was weak because my whole life i have been the strong one. You just gotta push through the bad times and make yourself right.... now that might seem impossible or out of reach but in time you'll get your confidence back start talking to yourself but instead of telling yourself your not worth it or your weak you start bringing yourself up instead of down.

Try to stay busy man...

keep fighting...

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sweetk30's got the idea...just pick up your bible and read a bit...you'd be surprised what kinda effect it'll have on ya if you do it regularly...i just got back into it, and wow....Between school, wrenchin on an 86 that will NEVER pass smog, and pressure at home, i can get pretty down too, we all can, you just gotta realize that theres ALWAYS someone there for you, whether its a friend or God...oh yeah, you can talk to him 24/7/365
 
Ah $h!t THats tight! :D Now you can pm and post in all the forums and chat and all that fun stuff! THats awsome. Good old Ck5. Man If only there was a way that everyone in ck5 could be in one room at one time :blush: THat would be the coolest room to be in man i tell you what :cool1: Its totaly a motivator for me. Just checkin out other peoples projects and realizing that mine isnt actually all that big or lenghty project and it gets me out there dooin stuff. HELL YA!
 
Whoa, hang on. Something smells funny...


Tell me if this is just my upper lip but:
You complain about how you have so little money for housing, fuel, etc...

But you have DSL?
 
TSGB said:
Whoa, hang on. Something smells funny...


Tell me if this is just my upper lip but:
You complain about how you have so little money for housing, fuel, etc...

But you have DSL?
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yes i have dsl, i'm on county assisted living, my phone with dsl is 7.95 a month, my gas/eletric is 12.95 a month..thats my share, the county pays the rest, plus i also get food stamps so i can eat, and redueced rent...any other questions? not that its your business...
 
Ok. Sorry, but that did sound kind of fishy to me. I didnt' mean to intrude, but it's cool. I know what it is to be flat-ass poor.
 
did any one notice he is selling is k5 in the forsale section. he must be broke if a good chevy man is selling the only chevy thay have.
 
sweetk30 said:
did any one notice he is selling is k5 in the forsale section. he must be broke if a good chevy man is selling the only chevy thay have.
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Sorry to get a little testy there. and yes i'm trying to sell my k5, although no one is interested yet. i am extreamly broke right now. honestly i haven't even been able to pay "my share" of my utility bills this month, and i'm out of food stamps for the month, and all i have left is pb&j and rice..and not all of my medical bills were/are covered and i owe roughly 15 grand, and i get phone calls and nasty letters on a daily basis right now. i had to sell my heater and down jacket this weekend just so i could fix my truck(found out why it wasn't starting) and put 2 gallons of gas in it to get it home. so once again, sorry for getting testy, i'm strugling right now and don't like when people question my finances..and for those who are wondering my share of the phone bill is the same wether or not i have dsl. sorry just a little stressed right now.
 
Just an idea about the med bills. Have you thought about bankruptcy? If you qualify for Chapter 7 (or is it 13?) ALL of your past debts will be wiped clean. Also, it will protect certain assets, such as one vehicle. Don't know if you have looked into this or if it would really help but just thought I would offer some ideas. If you do go this way, make it soon, recent changes to the bankruptcy laws go into effect in 6? months making things a bit different. I'm no expert, just listen to the radio a lot. Keep in there man. Pat
 
A little more- Please don't think I'm trying to tell you what to do, I'm just relaying information I have learned from personal experience and from the experiences of close family members. I don't know if they have this where you live, but in AZ, they offered low-income medical coverage for free to those who qualify. I had a family member use this to get the help they needed when they were down. Anti-depressants work wonders for some people and I think something like 30% or more Americans have had prescriptions for them, so it is almost becoming normal to be on them. I just know my sister really turned things around when she got her 'script. Once again-not saying any of this applies to you, just telling what I know and trying to help. Pat
 
yeah i have thought about the bankruptcy way, but not ready to go that route at this point, don't know if i want that on my credit for the next 10 or 11 years or however long it is
 
My dad owes over $200,000 in child support, credit cards, leases etc and he refuses to think about filing bankruptcy... pretty damn stupid if you ask me but he still hasn't learned how to swallow his pride.

15,000 is not that much at your age... one good loan and you could have it all paid off in 10 or so years...
 
hey man back to the religion thing there are churches that wont judge you. I go to one when i am back home that is awsome. If you want to try to get in touch with a church like that let me know and i will talk to my paster and ask him if he can find out if there is a church like that where you are. And if you happen to be near Tacoma Wa try the Christian biker tabernacle that place is old bikers and they also has there own 4x4 club call faith wheelers. they have a site faithwheelers.com try talking with them or if you want to talk to a christian guy who has been in your shoes my yahoo name is [email protected]
 
dirtwarrior17 said:
with todays gas prices you should start eating mad beans and sell your farts... :haha: :rotfl:
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thanks man, i needed that laugh this morning :D :haha:
 
The Power of Now

Link:

http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/A...3/sr=2-1/ref=pd_bbs_b_2_1/102-4445409-4677734

The author of this book was about to commit suicide, but had an epiphany related to the nature of mind, how we become attached to an idea, or a fabrication of who we are. However, like all things in this world (trucks, girlfriends, parents...), our idea of who we are is temporary, illusory, and attachment to any of these things will cause you to suffer, because they will change. You may relate to this author as he was in a similar state of suffering, and the book may help lead you out depression, or at least help you understand why you are going through what you are right now.

Not to be a hardass, but you must take complete responsibility for every aspect of your life. Not to do so is only a copout, and allows you to stay in a state of helplessness, while taking responsibility empowers you to be solely responsible to change it. Lots of $hit happens we don't understand the cause behind, but just because our perspective is limited does not mean we did not, at some point, create the conditions for whatever is happening now. We are just too ignorant and shortsighted to understand the principles of causality. It's OK, because we are all human and learning. We can only hope that in the future we can gain enough wisdom to not have to learn everything through suffering. The more wisdom, the less we ram our heads into a brick wall over and over again, thus the suffering in life CAN diminish. There is hope.
 
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