more build catharsis... for anyone willing to read... this will be long, and my pre-apologies for that.. I just feel like typing this stuff, and this is the only place I guess for me to do that...
I'm sure most come in and see a bunch of paragraphs and no pics, and move on, and that's cool.. i get modern day social media instant gratification.. I'm as guilty as the rest...
but for those of you that I haven't offended and will actually read my drivel, big big props to you... I am truly thankful.... this isn't even build babble, but some sort of mental justification, for my madness...
I often wonder WTF is wrong with me....
I truly will live in squalor, to build what I think, I should...
i know it's just words, but... i doubt there are many in here, that will sacrifice a stable life, housing, family, etc to build their stuff... and I applaud you..
you're smarter than I...
I just kind of have this thing in my head about how i want to build things, and nothing stops me from that vision.. if my brain pic says I need $900 in sheet alum, I will find a way to do that.... food, bills, relationships, jobs, housing, my health, yada, etc, blah... contrary to what some may think of me, I'm not egotistical about my builds... i dare anyone to find text from me where I said my stuff/fab was great, better than anyone else's...
but I will say, there are few that work harder than me... some work very hard to PAY for things, but VERY few will put in the monotonous stooopid amount of time I do... I'm not sure where it comes from.. well, I am, but still....
When I went to body tech school as a teen, i learned that your paint job was only as good as your substrate.. I know, it's a cliche line, often used.. but, to me, it meant I would go to any lengths to ensure my surfaces where x-blocked, etc to perfection.... proper prep, really is everything to me...
in some ways of my life, that has been a huge downfall.. curbing that perfection has been difficult over the yr's when it came to actual jobs and being profitable... from bodywork, to mechanical, I have had to learn to control that... thus why, as many can imagine from my builds, me having my own biz would have more than likely lead to exceptional failure...
part of me wishes I could have exchanged some of that for what I always referred to as the "greed" bone, which, as a poor SOB, I obviously didn't get.... doh.....
I don't consider myself to be OCD in any way really.. it's not my deal, but it is hard for me to backpedal on my "creations" I guess I'll say... I just spent hr's downstairs DA-ing and wetsanding the bottom of my main al panels to pure flatness, no scratches, etc.. no one on the planet will ever know, besides me.. I think it's more a curse than a blessing I suppose...
there are plenty of guys in here that are better fabbers than me.. I watch Greg's craziness, Speedholes front bumper insanity, Skinnies bead rolling, etc, and just try to keep pace... not to leave anyone out, promise, I watch all you guys....i would literally sell my right index finger to lay beads like I see on Weldporn... but I do the best I can to achieve my brain pics...
I don't know... I just hope in 20, 30 yr's, when I'm ashes, someone will "get" what I was trying to do, and appreciate it.. I certainly won't have a Foose name.. and that's not what it's about... I just want some little kid in 2042, when everyone's in self-driving cars, to see a pic of Mutt, or my K5 (if I can ever finish it
), to think "man, that thing is cool"......
if you read that, thanks.....
