There’s so many decisions and thoughts going on my head on a normal day just sitting on the couch that the more i learn, the more i get lost... and when i make the inevitable mistakes that will follow, its hard to pick myself back up again and keep going. Motivation is great and itll get you going.. but for me things like this are whats needed. Im at a point with this transmission and my general skill set where i cant remember every thought thats gone on in my head and i forget thoughts and tasks... not anymore! Ive started a diary of the truck so when i leave the shop i can resume fatherhood and being a husband without always running over ideas and trying to remember things to check next time ect.. Not only will this help me not make mistake by forgetting steps and thoughts, but also just let me leave that place exactly where i left it when i close the door. I cant even describe how many " oh, chit ! " moments that have happened over the course of this build or not remembering what i did where 6 years ago.... and mistakes are one thing but the kick in the nads is when you KNEW you had to do it another way and you even told yourself to remember.. but you didnt.
This process is not something i want to do but i think its absolutely necessary to be more efficient and progressive while trying to learn all these new things. Something a good ol boy told me years ago while we were smashing tower pins out day after day, hanging in a harness 300-400 ft in the air was " the efficiency of accuracy ". This simple phrase hasnt left my mind since. Through all my years of persevering through hardships and life altering struggles ive built a hell of a determination to accomplish things and made friends with my devil, but over the last year or two ive noticed its almost plateaued in a sense. The same thing that got me to where i am is the very same thing thats stopping me from moving forward onto the next step, and its time to look at that gift like a handicap and evolve. If anyone else is struggling with not having the right tool anymore, it sounds crazy but less energy focused properly, can be the outstanding difference.
Ive always thought of this thread as my diary but its edited, so the need for a free range space with bad ideas and crossed out thoughts will hopefully really help with sorting all this mind garbage into actual working pieces.


plus its fun to doodle...
This process is not something i want to do but i think its absolutely necessary to be more efficient and progressive while trying to learn all these new things. Something a good ol boy told me years ago while we were smashing tower pins out day after day, hanging in a harness 300-400 ft in the air was " the efficiency of accuracy ". This simple phrase hasnt left my mind since. Through all my years of persevering through hardships and life altering struggles ive built a hell of a determination to accomplish things and made friends with my devil, but over the last year or two ive noticed its almost plateaued in a sense. The same thing that got me to where i am is the very same thing thats stopping me from moving forward onto the next step, and its time to look at that gift like a handicap and evolve. If anyone else is struggling with not having the right tool anymore, it sounds crazy but less energy focused properly, can be the outstanding difference.
Ive always thought of this thread as my diary but its edited, so the need for a free range space with bad ideas and crossed out thoughts will hopefully really help with sorting all this mind garbage into actual working pieces.
plus its fun to doodle...
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